Sometimes, I creep Blogger blogs to see what regular bloggers are saying. Not to say that any of us (the readers of this blog, who are in majority a part of the “circle”) are irregular bloggers, but I mean people who actually blog for themselves.

I know, we all blog for ourselves. But we do so being well aware that there’s an active audience watching. Many of us track stats and I know that a few hundred people will stumble over this entry over the next few days. Some of us strive to be the top hit for a certain something on Google, so it’s clear that we want to be found, and we can’t necessarily complain if the wrong person finds us. And even some of the more confident of us occasionally doubt that what we say will be interesting to others, and somewhere in our stomachs we feel a little bit of fear that here we’ve exposed ourselves to the world, and maybe we might be boring.

The blogs I creep (creep, creep), however, don’t have any of this. They don’t receive comments, save the occasional one from a friend who’s been let in on the secret that this otherwise not-net-geeky person has something to write online, and therefore the audience isn’t specific. It isn’t targeting a certain niche, it’s more speaking to a nameless person of the writer’s own creation. Perhaps it’s even speaking to themselves.

Anyway, so I read these blogs, and I feel fascinated by them, and the way they write about whatever: what they ate that day, what they did, who they were with, relationships, the occasional deep and meaningful post or poem, without any pretense of entertaining the masses, or even anybody at all. I become attached, but I do not comment because I don’t want to ruin the candidness of expressing one’s feelings to nobody.

Sometimes I see people in the street and they remind me of the people’s lives that I read. Yesterday, I saw one that even looked like one of the people, that it took a bit not to rush up, give him a hug and exclaim “Don’t worry! We’re young! We’re all looking for love, and you’re not alone, and neither am I, because we secretly have each other!”

Of course, people are not allowed to be so candid in public.