I’m starting to think that there’s some sort of hit out on me, or something. I have been sick for about a month now. With everything. First I got the flu from my mom, I went through that, had a day of peace, and then got the flu from my dad. After a few days of suffering through that, I got a horrible ear ache. After two days of pain, I went to the clinic, and we all know how that went. After two and a half days with poo-stimulant oil dripping from my ears, I had my ears flushed, which threw off my entire balance, caused things to be far too intense, and made me sick again. After being told to take Tylenol to make the pain go away, from the ear infection, I somehow acquired a cold from hell.

I am serious when I say that I would rather have the flu than a cold. Because a cold isn’t a valid reason to stay home from school and work. A cold is seen as something silly that everyone gets. But it’s much worse than the flu. You can’t breathe, for one. It is VERY hard to sleep when you can’t breathe. With the flu, you can throw up and feel a bit better. Colds are relentless. My mom has had this cold for weeks. She has the immune system of an ox. With my lowered immune system (I’m the kid that somehow got whooping cough in grade 5, I’ll probably get polio and diphtheria next…), I’ll probably have it for the next 6 months.

And I feel bad. Because I don’t want to infect people, like, for example, one of my instructors who just so happened to be away sick yesterday (sorry!) or my classmates, but at the same time I need to go to school and work. I’ve missed tonnes at my one job. Luckily, I’ve been neglecting to pick up my cheques from my webmaster job at The Weal, so I picked them up yesterday and now have $300 to get me through this and whatever illness comes next (maybe pneumonia!).

Oh, and on my way home from work, I was almost hit by an SUV. As in I could feel the heat from the front of the car.

So, if anyone out there has a voodoo doll of some sort, it works. NOW STOP IT.

I am completely, totally and utterly FALLING APART AT THE SEAMS. I cannot count how many times I’ve been sick these last few weeks, but it’s been a lot. Just looking at this last week, I was sick last Thursday until Tuesday with a cold that was made a million times worse from exhaustion. Then, on Tuesday my right ear started to feel a little bit weird. Yesterday, it was constantly painful, so I went to the clinic on campus.

I went around lunch time, and after a few minutes of sitting there, they turned off the lights, saying I could see a nurse, but that they were all going to go for lunch soon since the doctor was away and they rarely get a chance to go out. Uh, okayyyy but I am in pain, so?! The nurse looked at my ear for about 10 seconds and then told me to use mineral oil drops for 3 days and come back on Friday afternoon (which is actually two days, but who’s keeping track?).

After school yesterday, I went to my work to find this mineral oil stuff. I work in the department next to the pharmacy, so the pharmacists probably have a rough idea of who I am. I asked one of them where I could find this stuff, and they told me the next aisle on my left. I was confused for a moment, since that aisle is generally filled with condoms and Pepto-Bismol. I look, expecting some sort of small bottle that oils often come in. Failing at that, I look to the bottom shelf and find a giant bottle of mineral oil. I pick it up, and on the front of it is says, in large letters tasteless, odorless LAXATIVE. Suddenly, I am completely mortified. Ugh.

So, I’ve had anti-constipation oil dripping out of my ears since last night, which is pretty gross, and isn’t helping much. In fact, I nearly blacked out and I cried twice today, from the pain. Once while buying juice, I had to bend over and cry while waiting in line. Then, at lunch, I went to the washroom and as I was washing my hands I had to put my head down on the counter and cry, after my ear popped.

To just make myself that little extra bit annoying and pathetic, I am extremely worried about… oh, everything. I’m worried about family and friends and the fact that no matter how hard I try right now I fall short of what I would expect for myself. I should be doing better in school (not that I’ve had anything but an A- or higher apart from one quiz before Reading Week, the day my Dad was having a procedure done). I’ve missed a lot of work due to sickness, so I am poor, and I’m not sure if I will be able to keep my job if this keeps up. But I HAVE to, because I need to pay for stuff. The nightmares still continue and I feel extra attached to everyone around me, as if they’re all about to go away.

It’s probably becoming a recurring theme in this blog, and I’m sorry for being so whiney, but I just need things to stop for a little while.

I know, I know, I fail massively at blogging and keeping this site going. I’ve been writing here consistently since, oh, May 2006, through all sorts of busy and adventures and suddenly I go back to school and become super laaaame. The thing is, there’s lots I could say… but it would all bore you. It’s all school-related. I’ve decided to remedy this problem by joining the student bloggers at my school. That way I can ramble about all the school-specific stuff over there (and you can read it if you want, when it’s active…)  and spare you guys. And hopefully once that is filtered out of my system, the stuff you guys ACTUALLY want to hear will come out onto this blog.

Yes, yes, I have a new design. It’s sitting in Photoshop just waiting to be chopped up and coded. But I also have:

• a corporate identity project. I need to design logos and stationery for a corporation. I got this assignment a week ago and I’m still idea-less for a company.
• a magazine project. Partner project, thankfully, but still an 8 page mock-up for a magazine. I think we’re going to review websites (one good, one bad)… We also need to make advertisements, a cover, etc.
• a stupid 3D bike project. OMG I HATE 3D. I can’t get the program to install on my PC so I’m totally screwed and have to stay after school to finish this stupid bike, and I missed yesterday’s class because… well, because.
• a propaganda website project. I am coding a website, which is fine, but kind of doesn’t make me want to code this website. Or… actually, I’d prefer to code this website, because it’s more fun, but schoolwork takes priority.

I’m also focusing on such fun stuff as trying to reintegrate my social life into my life (not seeing your non-school friends since September SUCKS) and trying to get back on track in terms of healthiness. I lost, like, 10lbs this summer, and then plateaued, possibly due to the close proximity of food to all of my classes at all times. I am steps away from Starbucks, Sobeys, the cafeteria, and this place called the 4 Nines where the culinary students sell off all the yummy things they make. With my stress levels soaring, it’s quite easy to nomnomnom everything in sight… and to be honest, I have been. I think we went down to Crave for cupcakes twice last week. Eep.